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An ode to a heartbreak, one you should have seen coming
Yet you got blinded by the fables of hope, of belief, of loving
They say love is how much you’re willing to give up for a person, in sickness and health.
And you gave up, a lot, including yourself.
It’s an ode to a heartbreak, a pretty much foreseen one
That left you in the trenches of depression, with no more strength to mourn
You’ve always been one with tough skin, ready to bear the worst
But the heart muscle was not built to stretch, unless it is sick – just like yours.
This is an ode to a heartbreak, your heartbreak
And one that occurred for far too long, repeatedly, more than you could take
Affliction shall not arise a second time. Affliction shall not arise a second time.
But what happens when everyday for a year, a new hurt for you is designed?
You had never been one to have plans in life – you staggered through most of it.
But this one time, you believed it would end well, you won’t be shattered like your last relationship.
And to be fair, it was nothing like that – only worse.
Leaving your heart with more scars than your skin when you have it cut.
You were taught in school that snakes only hiss and never speak
So when you were met with a python that said “hello my world” you could not recognize it
Or decode how it entwined itself so much in your life, you couldn’t function without it.
And you were always one bent on having labels, yet fell for someone without strings.
This is an ode to a heartbreak, with a pain that only but tore you apart
With darkness worse than death, and tears enough to fill the hole in your heart.
This is an ode to 2020, a year filled with more brokenness than breath
Housing Satan’s evil chuckle, with the worst kinds of despair and death
This is an ode to all the tears you shed this year, you made it out alive.
And if noone mentioned it the past 365 days, you came out of it beautiful in your stride.
This is an ode to your strength, here’s to hoping we never have to muster that much again, or suffer same fears.
This is an ode to my love for you, and the hope that we live through the next year.
This is an ode to your survival.

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