14:00

I have tried, but it seems I would never learn how to love you
I am far too engineered, far too imperfect to hold anything and not try to improve it
So I keep getting scared of putting your rounded fragile heart in the hollow of my shaky palm
Stay with me
The flavour in the sound of your fast-paced breathing blesses me with the curse of Ondine
My chest is covered in a thick sheet of latex, which is to say, I did my best to protect my heart from love
Yet somehow I got infected with the need to inhale your smile every single day I'm alive
Which is not very common as I'm only alive two times in a week
You whisper floodlight, when my soul swears it wants blackouts
You are the metaphor in the tone of my anguish
The coloured freckles on your beautiful face are an anagram for my intentions towards you
The gleam in your eyes is my motivation to never lose mine
You are the crimson cord guiding me away from the broken figments of my feeble heart
Sending me towards the mirror of hope that you call your eyes
I am nothing but the mirage of a lost boy in the rain;
You trying to hug me would only leave you drenched and alone
You, even with all the possibilities before you, still choose to love me
You still decide to make me the centre of your happiness
How on earth am I supposed to not fall in love with the tower of graceful spillage of white wine that you are?
How could I escape this positive pull?
It seems I would never know how to love you
I have tried to be who I'm not, yet this doesn't seem to work
But I would rather stumble across the right way to broaden the spectrum of devotion I bear towards you
Than let it fester, and allow my appetite for your heart wane like surname of Batman
I love you, the same way this poem was written; rushed, but with good intentions.
And though it seems I would never learn how to really love you, I hope we stumble upon it together, every day we stare at the sunset through the bespectacled lenses of our frail souls.
I hope we stumble, together.
Stay with me.

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